I am so easily discombobulated. It is so easy to let peace slip past. It is easy to let the perplexity of people, of words, of emotions, of relationships frustrate. So much in life is muddled. I am also the kind of person who wants desperately to understand, and wants to be understood. This is frustration. I feel as though I keep having to come back to the places where like in Job, God answers from out of the whirlwind, out of the mess of the storm and says you cannot understand, says it with a lot of sarcasm (which I always kind of loved) says it over and over again using so many various analogies.
"Then the LORD answered Job out of the whirlwind and said:
“Who is this that darkens counsel by words without knowledge?
Dress for action like a man;
I will question you, and you make it known to me.
“Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth?
Tell me, if you have understanding.
Who determined its measurements—surely you know!
Or who stretched the line upon it?" (Job 38:1-5 ESV)
However, not stopping there I also need 1 Corinthians 13:12
"For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known."
So then, in a sense I arrive back to where I started. Words and more words making everything murky, however, thankfully the first 2 advent candles are hope and peace. There is hope that this frail limited mind that yet seems so complex and frustrating to me can be both known and will know. For now I only see in part, and that gives me peace as well. I know (if not at all fully) the one who knows.
